✨ I Don’t Break, I Shift with God

Published on 28 July 2025 at 14:40

How I Heal, Shift, and Still Trust That I’m Being Held Through It All

People sometimes think I don’t feel things deeply.
That I’m “too okay” too quickly.
That I bounce back like it’s easy.
Like I’ve skipped the pain.

But here’s what they don’t get:

I do feel it. I just don’t live there.
I don’t sit in the sad too long. I shift it.
Not because I’m avoiding something—but because I know what I need to do to stay alive inside myself.
And deeper than that…
Because I trust that God is walking with me through it.

🧠 It’s Not Fake. It’s Just Emotional & Spiritual Intelligence.

Some people process by crying in silence. I process by moving.
By doing what makes me feel present. Light. Capable. Connected.
And that’s not bypassing—it’s spiritual survival.

I don’t let my thoughts spiral.
I don’t let grief sit in the driver’s seat.
I know when pain is trying to take over, and I gently remind it:
“God’s got me. I’m not alone in this.”

That’s not denial. That’s emotional regulation and spiritual trust.
That’s me letting pain knock—but not letting it stay.

It’s my heart saying:

“Okay, this hurts. But we’re not going to drown here. Let’s breathe. Let’s get up. God is still good. Let’s keep going.”

🔥 I Transmute Energy, Not By Force, But Through Faith + Focus

I don’t pretend I’m not hurting.
But I don’t perform my pain either.

Instead, I ask:

“What do I actually need right now?”
“What will bring me back to life, even just 1%?”
“What’s one way I can remember: I’m still loved, guided, and being rebuilt?”

Sometimes the answer is simple:

Go for a walk.
Rearrange my space.
Dance while I clean.
Pray while cooking.
Read a Psalm.
Text someone who lifts me.
Open the Bible randomly and just listen.

These aren’t distractions.
These are sacred acts of healing.

They are how I co-create with God to protect the light He planted in me.

💡 Shifting Doesn’t Mean Skipping

Let’s be clear—I’m not skipping the healing.
I just refuse to marinate in thoughts that drain me.

I’ve learned: Sitting in sadness too long can start to sound like truth.
But truth lives in hope. In God’s Word. In renewed perspective.

I witness the pain.
I acknowledge the loss.
But then I choose to move with intention.

Because the longer I sit in sorrow, the heavier it gets.

“Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
— Matthew 11:28

🧬 What I’m Really Doing Is Reclaiming Choice

Every time I choose joy, laughter, presence—even when I don’t feel like it—I’m not being fake.

I’m aligning with life. With grace. With faith.

I’m saying:

“I still have power here. And I trust God is working even when I don’t see it.”

That’s the real alchemy.
Not escaping the pain—but letting God work through it with me.

💬 If You’re Like Me, Here’s What You Can Say:

“I don’t fake being okay. I just choose not to live in what’s breaking me.”
“I let myself feel it, but I also let myself live.”
“I’m not bypassing. I’m building back with faith and purpose.”

📌 Real-World Reminders for the Everyday Alchemist of Faith:

Feeling joy while grieving doesn’t make you cold—it makes you alive.
You don’t need to explain why you’re smiling again.
Moving forward doesn’t mean you didn’t care. It means you’re healing with wisdom.
Choosing peace doesn’t mean you’re over it. It means you trust the process.
You’re not “too okay”—you’re too rooted in God’s grace to be shaken for long.

🖤 Final Thought

If you’ve ever been misunderstood because of how quickly you get back up, let me say this:

You’re not detached. You’re not fake. You’re not bluffing.

You’re healing your own way—with purpose.
With God.
With sacred focus.

You’re someone who refuses to let pain narrate the whole story.
Someone who still rises, still believes, still sings—even when the room goes quiet.

“Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning.”
— Psalm 30:5

And that morning?
It comes not because the pain vanishes,
But because God never left your side.

✍️ Journal Prompts (for Spirit-Led Healing)

What have I been holding onto that I need to give to God today?
What’s one way I can move with faith instead of fear this week?
What does God want to show me through this season of shifting?
When was the last time I felt peace in the middle of pain—and how did God meet me there?
How can I honor what I feel without letting it define me?

💬 Real Talk Reflection Questions

Do I trust God to handle the parts of my healing I don’t understand yet?
Am I allowing myself to heal differently than the world expects?
Where do I need to stop performing and start praying?
What scripture has kept me grounded recently, and why?
Am I trying to carry something that God is asking me to surrender?

🌙 One Last Thing Before You Go

You don’t have to explain how you heal.
You don’t need to convince anyone that your way is valid.
And you definitely don’t need to stay in the dark just because it once held you.

You’re not “too fast to move on.”
You’re not “too okay.”

You’re just someone who trusts in God's timing,
chooses light even in the dark,
and refuses to stay stuck when you're called to rise.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
— Psalm 34:18

“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified... for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.”
— Deuteronomy 31:6

So if no one’s told you this today:
You’re not alone. You’re anchored in something stronger than pain.
You’re allowed to heal in your way—with faith, with fire, with freedom.